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(no subject) [Sep. 29th, 2005|05:31 pm]
sleeping pills
strange feelings all over, lust and greed are pouring out of my eyes.  it keeps coming, the more time i am left alone.

my canvas is littered with the absence of photosynthesis.. drowning with tiny clouds and beeps.  

my wasteland is turning over in its grave.  you scold me and i unfold myself further into the sun, lying face up to the pavement.

i am swept sideways by dreams of superheroes antiheroes and the holy mother.  she walks beside me, a little behind me, always out of sight.. she haunts me like the bedroom slipper ghost.

this is sustenance this is practicality this is gallons of my own fear.

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(no subject) [Sep. 12th, 2005|03:14 pm]
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[music |iron and wine & calexico - "he lays in the reins"]

i am lost. i have taken to emailing the djs at kexp and requesting multitudes of sad bastard songs, none have played yet. myspace does not work today and i feel like i am all alone in the world. so frightening to think how much of my life is tied up in the internet. i have officially communicated with every ex boyfriend i have had recently.. none of them were contacted by me. my entire life is so surreal right now, i kind of like it, and hate it at the same time.. im just sort of floating along on a peice of styrofoam, silently praying that it doesn't become too waterlogged.

i am not as sad as my last post let on... its evolved more into me just sort of standing here, mouth hanging open, watching this bizarre life of mine happening.

i am waiting for something, i can feel the intensity of something heading my direction... i can't for the life of me figure out what... but it is coming.... to quote one of my favorite news headlines of all time, "ophelia looms".
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(no subject) [Sep. 9th, 2005|06:00 pm]
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[mood |indescribable]
[music |malcolm middleton]

muddle oh my messy life. rain on me salt shaker girl, my little puddle.

i imagine i'll remember this part of my life forever.. what a mess. its strange because i have this new mix of chemicals swirling around in my head, so i am "able" to accept what comes at me, and supposedly i am better equipped. it doesn't quite feel like that.. i am here, living thru the bullshit.. so i guess its good that i haven't lost my mind or jumped off a building or something, i just wonder if (medicated) humans have a breaking point, will there come a time when i am drowning in the shit that i just give up? let it swallow me whole?

i am trying my hardest, and that is gods truth. i guess thats what i am good at.. trying really hard for things that no one a)cares about b)notices .
im sorry.. im just going on and on about nothing. blah.
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(no subject) [Sep. 3rd, 2005|10:50 am]
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TODAY'S BIRTHDAY (September 3). You learn how to be unconditionally constructive toward yourself and others this year. This gives you more energy to build a life that's easy to be supportive of! You're treated like royalty this month and next. A dream-come-true vacation is featured in November. You make an instant and lasting connection with Gemini and Capricorn. Your lucky numbers are: 9, 40, 51, 43 and 28.
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guess what is awesome?! [Aug. 31st, 2005|03:47 pm]
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[music |Flotation Toy Warning - "Losing Carolina; for Dursky"]

did you guess this mighty beast? well you were only half right...

.. whats REALLY AWESOME? its my birthday on saturday, and i like to receive things via postal mail! i don't want anyone to purchase anything, but i love handmade things, crafts/art/music/cake.

send me some lovin. a girl only turns 22 once.... do it, you know you wanna send me things!

sara conyers
410 broadway ave e
seattle wa 98102
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(no subject) [Aug. 24th, 2005|06:01 pm]
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[music |kexp's shitty music show]

it has been an interesting few weeks to say the least.. nothing much of any importance to anyone else, but surreal from my perspective.
i guess news is, i am now single again, adam and i gave it our best for three years, but have decided to break up the band.
my main focus is now slowly being placed on some sort of future for myself. im hoping to complete at least one biggish documentary featuring the lives of truckers. this will take place sometime throughout the month of november. i'm also going to spend a little time doing some small town profiles, sioux city iowa is on the list.. im thinking of hitting cleveland mississippi and a few others perhaps. by years end i hope to have it edited and on display someplace. i suppose when i get done galavanting all over the states i plan on moving in with the sweetest lady of all time, my grandmama! and probably actually going to school. thats the news, these are the plans.. what do you have to say about it?
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ghost ski town [Aug. 22nd, 2005|12:44 pm]
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ghost ski town
Originally uploaded by wrongfrench.

yesterday i had brunch with the great alex and naomi, afterwards i went on a tiny road trip... take a look.

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im a sheep. [Aug. 19th, 2005|05:16 pm]
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[music |"do it again" - nada surf]

1. Go here.
2. Pass it on.
my answersCollapse )
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(no subject) [Aug. 9th, 2005|02:44 pm]
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someone wrote me song lyrics, i think thats neat. what is lame is that they won't fess up and say who they are. if its you, you should say!

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(no subject) [Aug. 4th, 2005|12:13 pm]
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[music |"may nothing but happiness come through your door" - mogwai]

so... if you find yourself enjoying whatever website you are looking at, how about let me know what it is, cause im so effing bored by the internet these days, maybe i am just out of the loop..
i wanna see funny stuff. show me the funny stuff!!!!!!!
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